The Dark Night of the Soul

by | Health, Life

I am awoken in the black of night. There are no ghosts here, just me & the pain.

Alone in the pain.

I am listening to silence – but then?

A few escapee thoughts make their way into my head , pushed up from the pit of dark despair & making their way through the back door they sneak into the light of my conscious mind.

I can’t this anymore.” (You’re doing it now)

How can I do this for the rest of my life?” (Don’t think about forever).

If things are this bad now, what will it be like when I am really old!?” (Who knows when we die?)

And in those moments, when the pain keeps me awake as the whole world sleeps, the only thing I know for sure – is that there is only this moment.

The future literally does not exist.

And for that?

I am deeply grateful. And glad.

Because if the future does not really exist yet?

That means the pain is only for now.

Just this one night.

And tonight I can do.

Every night.



I’ve screwed over my best friend

Dear Intuition,

I’m so sorry for ignoring you.

I am sorry for being a shit friend.

I grew up in a world that told me that you either didn’t exist, or that listening to you was dangerous.

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  1. Anthony

    For what [is] your life? It is even a vapour, that appeareth for a little time, and then vanisheth away.

  2. Anthony

    Then spake Jesus again unto them, saying, I am the light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life.

  3. Anthony

    The future literally does exist. When we die, our soul will depart from this mortal coil, from our body, and enter into the spirit realm. There is a life after death. The soul needs light to lighten our way. Call on Jesus, He will give you that light.

    • angeyan

      Yes. But I believe there may be a misunderstanding about what I meant.


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